I cannot go one day without fangirling about these lovely ladies so I made a Tumblr so I could do just that and not be judged. That is the Story Of My Life....Yes... That was a One Direction reference.
All the time
When I see things like this, it makes me wonder. I wonder why she feels this way. I wonder if she is content with where she is in life. When I see things like this, it scares me. It scares me to think that had she not auditioned and made it on the X Factor if she would have even tried to pursue a music career at all. I can’t fathom the thought of never getting to hear her beautiful and raw voice….Never getting to hear the dynamic harmonies that can only be completed with all five of them. I wonder if she wishes that she could have been doing something different. I wonder where her heart would be had she went a different path. I wonder what different regrets or different contentment’s she would have…or if she would be just as happy on her new path as she is now. I wonder if the stress she endures makes her resent her choice. I wonder if she ever feels like giving up when she sees mean and cruel comments said about her. When I see things like this it makes me sick. I wish I could sit and talk to her even if only for 5 minutes. I would tell her that she couldn’t have made a better decision. Maybe she would be just as happy had she gone in another direction in her life…but personally, I don’t think she would have been able to impact or touch as many people as she has. She has helped so many people in just the past 2 years of having chosen this path. Lives have been saved because of her. Personally, I am a better person because of her. I don’t feel so bad for just being myself because she reminded me that being myself and loving myself is the best damn thing I could ever do. She reminds me that dreams can become a reality if you just work at it….sure it’s hard and you deal with difficult situations, but nothing tastes sweeter than when all your hard work pays off. Anytime I have a gig or I have to sing in front of people and I feel nervous, I think of them. I actually wore my harmonizer snapback I got from NLT to my very first gig….. I auditioned for the Voice at the beginning of the year and I was beyond nervous. I had never sang in front of anyone except my vocal teacher and my best friends. My own parents hadn’t heard me sing. So to calm my nerves I thought of Lauren. I thought of all of the girls. I thought of how nervous they were when they auditioned and I thought of everything they have accomplished. And once they called my name and I opened my mouth to sing ,my nerves became nonexistent.
If i ever had more than 10 seconds with the girls I would tell them how much they have helped me. I wish they knew that I am confident in pursing my dreams because of them. If i ever feel hopless or cynical about my desires, all I have to do is watch a video of them living out their dream and instantly I have a smile on my face and a newfound hope. Lauren has always had this special place in my heart. Her intelligence and her confidence are undeniably unique. The very last time I met them, I went to hug them all one last time before my friend and I were forced to leave, and right before Lauren hugged me, she looked me in the eyes and said “We have met you before.” I dont know why that is such a big deal to me but it is. I told my friend earlier that I hope they remeber us and Lauren was the only one to recognize me. Its funny how such a small thing can mean so much. Maybe I am reading too much into this. Sorry for making this so long…but I just hope she is content with her choice…because her choice is the reason I am content with mine.
"For someone to believe in you, is always the best feeling in the world."
All of this negative energy about the Austin tour needs to stop. I really don’t like to sound preachy but maybe I will touch someone, I don’t know. No matter what we do, what we say, how we feel, this tour is happening. All we do when we engage and partake in rude and unnecessary conflict is hurt the people we are there for in the first place. The fact that people brought signs with a disrespectful comment is completely obnoxious. Fifth Harmony would not think its cute. Newsflash, Fifth Harmony and Austin are friends. If the two artists did not like each other they would not have been put on tour together. The only people that are fighting is the fandoms and its ridiculous. For me, a concert is a place of escape. While I am at a concert I can forget about any stress or trouble in my life and just lose myself in the music and have fun. That to me is what concerts are for. So I hope that people can be civilized and just enjoy themselves. Its okay to be there for 5h or be there for Austin but use your common sense and think before you do or say something. Music is one of the most universal creations and we can love whatever type of music we want to. Why waste your time bashing on a type of music or artist that you by all means do not have to like! As fandoms why do we have to be so hateful? We should get along so easily because we are all there for the same reason. We all love music. Its doesn’t matter what type. We are all there to listen to music and have a bomb ass diggity time. Just because people are ignorant and say hateful comments over the internet like the coward they are doesn’t mean we should be mean to an Artist or entire fandom. I don’t know about ya’ll but I know that when I go to my venue I am going to buy myself a soda and enjoy myself. Nothing is going ruin my fun, I won’t allow it. With all of that said I hope you have a great day/night. And to those at the concert tonight, have an amazing and unforgettable time. Remember to love yourselves. Love yah guys!
Me when people say Fifth Harmony will flop….